REAL TALK….
So, today is Mini-Me’s 16th Birthday!
My sons came home from college for part of the weekend, but
are going back to school today.
I ended up with a migraine to begin the weekend and it’s been trying to creep back in.
Yesterday Mini-Me ran in a cross-country meet (extreme heat
and humidity) and almost passed out at the end of the race. Thank goodness “Mr.
T” was there and caught her as she fell. And she is completely recovered, just
so you know. 😊
I have been having an EMOTIONAL few days!!!
Then, to top it all off, I was looking through Facebook pictures
and saw a picture of myself that was NOT very flattering. Like, AT
ALL!
And I dang near lost it. I wanted to cry my eyes out. I’ve
been working really hard for months on my health and wellness journey. I’ve had
major accomplishments, and I’ve also had frustrating setbacks. I’ve seen some
pictures that I thought, “wow, I can really tell I’m getting in better shape”.
I can feel it in how my clothes are fitting. I can feel it when I walk. I was
starting to see it in my muscle tone. The scale has been a bit fickle, but it's been SLOWLY trending downward.
And then that picture. The puffiness in my face. The love-handles. The lower belly roll from carrying twins and a third child that NEVER managed to snap back no matter how many lower abdominal exercises I’ve tried.
All the insecurities. All the self-doubt. All the body-shaming.
Crashed through me like a freight train.
But the most marvelous thing happened. Just a tiny sliver of
a thought filtered through all my despair.
“You’re still on the journey. You’re not there yet.
And you ARE NOT GIVING UP!”
My head snapped up and I looked around my room because I
swear it sounded like someone was ACTUALLY whispering to me.
You’re still on the journey. You’re just not there YET. And you can’t give up. Not now. You haven’t come this far to ONLY come this far (yes, a meme I posted weeks ago smacked me upside the head).
And I realized it’s true. I’ve been changing my eating
habits. I’ve been working on more physical activity. I’ve been working on
stress-relief. Prayer. And I’ve been working a LOT on mindset.
I don’t think there is anything that will convince me that
the mindset work and prayer haven’t had as much if not MORE of an impact
on my health journey as the nutrition and movement have.
And it also renewed my determination to help others, as
well. Because there was SO MUCH doubt about what am I even trying to do?
What am I even helping people with?
So let me say, RIGHT NOW, if you want to change your
health. If you want to lose weight, or feel better, or increase your energy, or
WHATEVER, reach out to me.
I KNOW how hard it is! I KNOW how much it
hurts to try and fail and try again, only to fail again. I know how painful it
is to see friends, family, or posts on social media that make it look “sooo
easy” and it makes you question if there’s something wrong with YOU.
Why is this not working for me? Why does it seem like I take two steps forward
only to take FIVE steps back?
It’s not about starting another diet. It’s not about starting another exercise program. There is nothing wrong with either of those things. But maybe what you need is that intangible SOMETHING that you can’t quite put your finger on, you just know that you WANT to change, you WANT things to be different.
Maybe what you need this time is Guidance. Support.
Understanding. Accountability. No Judgment. A space to figure out what
works best for YOU and not what fits everyone else. Someone who can help
you plan all the technical aspects of health and weight loss (nutrition and
exercise), but also works with you on mindset, growth, emotional support, and
believes in your ability to accomplish your goals even when you’re struggling
to believe it yourself.
Someone who is going through it WITH you.
This has been a complex and overwhelming weekend for me. A
lot of emotional and physical pain (migraines really suck). I’m happy I’ve had
the training from the last few years to help me bounce back and not give up
again, but to regroup and get back to work on my goals.
I Did Not Come This Far To ONLY Come This Far!
And I’m here to help when you’re ready.
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