My sons graduated college on Saturday.
I'm still trying to process how I feel about that. On the one hand, I'm incredibly proud of them! Their major is Statistics (both of them), and it was not an easy degree to complete.
On the other hand, my "little" boys are grown up and about to face the world as adults.
Everyone jokes about how time flies and don't blink or you'll miss them growing up. I never really cared for those sayings, as during that time I was eyeball deep in activities, work, and stress. I needed them to mature, as I felt I was going insane from the pressure.
Now that they are grown, I realize how truly blessed I am. For many parents, this day never comes. They would give anything to see their child graduate from college. I'm beyond fortunate to have that opportunity.
And I'm sad, too. I knew I was MOSTLY guaranteed school breaks with them, or at least large chunks of those breaks. That is no longer true.
Their jobs and lives will be headed in a different direction, and I can no longer count on those breaks to have time with them.
Logically, I know I've "done my job" as a mom by raising them and teaching them to function in the world (along with the village it takes to make this happen), but I can't stop that pang in my momma heart, or the tears that spring to my eyes when I think about the distance that naturally comes from growing up and moving away from your family.
It's a bittersweet moment.
Good for them to grow and move on with life. Bad for my momma emotions that will miss them terribly all over again (graduating from high school and heading to college).
I'm also happy to start this new chapter of MY LIFE. We have one more kid at home. Mini-Me is about to be a senior, and we have one more year of following after her. Then she is off to college, and we are entering the empty nest phase.
I hear it's awesome and I will love it. I believe it. I'm excited about focusing on my nutrition, on creating blog posts and Substack articles about health and wellness, working with clients to improve their health, creating wellness courses, and enjoying my time with family and friends.
So, if you managed to read this far, thanks for hanging around, I just needed a post where I could vent a little. I already miss my boys and they aren't even MOVED anywhere yet. LoL
We have an entire summer of activity to get through with Mini-Me, and her whole senior year ahead. It's going to be a wild ride, but I'm going to do my best to be present, soak it in the best I can, and try not to let the minutia clutter up my enjoyment of these moments. The same for my boys - enjoy them while they are home, and support them wherever they may go.
Later.
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